incantation

and now you sleep - like a performance - like a drama - it has ended and there are tears - no time to wipe them - they are held there below your crooked eyes and i think of them - think of how beautiful you are - you say, "stop saying 'beautiful' - call me handsome" - so yes, oh, so handsome -

so perfect - so in need of glorious holy wine to be rubbed in your face - i want to kiss you - exchange our bodily fluids - i want to whisper in your ear - i want to tremble when i recognize your voice - finally - and i will - one day - i will have it deep in my soul - there is a path to it -

i need you - oh, i want you - but i need you - as an object - as a lover - a partner - as a lifelong connection - your jaw held so hard and cold - one day this winter - cold - i would offer you some warmth - change your mind - make you change - make you weary - you would raise your lips - to say all sorts of things you had never imagined - you would shudder - intent on your senses - our pleasures

- a new sensation - love filling - it would be you - you would no longer be mortal - you would believe you could live forever - savours transmitting - definitions - make this reappear - over and over - make it reappear - illumed by light - recapture everything - fine - we would be others - we could be - i would

be anyone - our likes would be the same - let me write this overture - you'll never grow fatigued - you'll never lose your dream - you will be rested  - refreshed - that empty space - in your mind's eye - remembering the first mouthful we had together - rising - embedding - great depth - of love mounting - measured by echoes - palpitating images - come - let me follow you into your mind - those colours blending - whirling hues - i want you - there - here - evidence of us everywhere - your smell soaked in my sheets - my taste soaked in yours - let this new / old memory come out of our being - ten times

over - every difficulty would urge us to give up - but we won't - we will never - suddenly a crumb will return - it will be like a summer over and over again - everything resumed - all background noise gone - all static gone - more vitality - more persistence - more faithful - the smells and tastes of everything of

us - no longer buried in ruins - but there - recognized - in all weathers - in all days - in all roads - you

me - love